Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Most Days...

I'm okay with being a working mom. In fact, it makes me feel really accomplished to have a career and a family. I've worked really hard to get to where I'm at...all throughout college and in the 5 years since. But whoever said a baby changes everything...well, they nailed it. Because every now and then a day sneaks up on me where my heart is SO sad because all I want is to be at home with my baby.
It really is a struggle. And it mostly comes down to taking a few deep breaths, saying a prayer, gaining some perspective, getting some encouragement and I feel better. Don't get me wrong, being with Sawyer is my most favorite place to be, but I remind myself I'm also working to provide for him...to be able to make his life easier -- buy him a new baseball glove, go on vacations, get him a car, an education, etc. -- and I also want to be an example for him {and hopefully a daughter one day}.

And trust me, I know being a stay at home mom is a job all in itself. And I'm sure there are some days that SAHM's would love to go to work for a day and have a break. I have a sister who is a SAHM, so trust me, I know. The fact is there are pros and cons to both sides.

I am just going to continue to pray that I am doing His will, and for contentment, and continue to be thankful for even having a job...a great one at that. Just have to keep pushing that mommy guilt down!


5 comments:

Amy said...

I needed this today. That mommy guilt gets me all the time!

Kathy Jo said...

I don't really know what to say after reading this post. First of all, your words touch my heart every time I read your posts - I feel your emtion that goes into every typed letter. You have beautiful writing skills that portray your feelings and emtions. Secondly, I am so proud of you and EVERYTHING that you have accomplished. Your work, having a precious blessing that you call your son, and then combining both to have a very fullfilling life. I pray daily that God gives you strength and joy...strength to get you through your days at work and the joy when you come home to one special little boy (and a wonderful husband and sweet Coopie).

I love you Tiff!!
Kathy

Jess said...

You are an amazing mom and I'm sure Sawyer will appreciate all that you do for him! I am so excited to see you guys this weekend in Auburn!

morgan823 said...

You are not alone!! I don't think the mommy guilt ever goes away but like you said you just push forward and do what you have to for you and your family. That's all we can do!! Great post!!

Our Southern Front Porch said...

Tiff those pictures are incredible! Love everyone. He is so sweet.