Wow, it still seems surreal to say that. Daughter, we are all so excited about you. We've been hoping and dreaming and praying for you. We know our Heavenly Father created you so specifically for us and our family and we cannot wait to welcome you into our hearts and our family.
We can't wait to see what you look like, what traits you possess and who you got them from. We can't wait to watch you grow and learn and discover all the world has to offer. While we know you will be entirely your own person it will also be so special to see pieces of me and your daddy and even your brothers in you. I know whoever you are and whoever you become will be absolutely perfect!
It's been an honor to carry you inside of me! It's such a privilege and one I will forever be thankful for. I'm already so blessed to be your mommy!
We all can't wait to have you in our arms and smother you with kisses!
Come quick, little girl, we're so anxious to meet you!
I already love you more than you will ever, ever know!
Just a few more days until we welcome your little sister. And I'm sure it's no surprise to you that your momma is a little emotional about it. Change is hard -- even when you know it is going to be the best thing ever! There is just something about giving up what you know and what you are comfortable with. I hope you two will always press on with change and enjoy the process of it in life, letting yourself grow and be stretched from it. While I know that love only multiplies, I also know that splitting my time between 3 means less time for everyone and that is what is making me sad. It's silly really, because I know you guys will probably never feel that way and because there is nothing better in life than your brother and sister. You'll probably have days where you like each other more than me or daddy and that's okay.
I can picture us as a family of 5 with a new baby girl. I can see you two helping her discover the world and protecting her as she grows up. I can see you three together in several years running around the back yard playing together. Much like you two do now, just with a little pig tailed girl following 2 steps behind you both. I can see you both helping her learn to hit a baseball and cheering her on at her dance recital, or swim meet, or whatever hobby she wants to pursue. And I know she'll be doing the same for you two. I know she will be crazy about both of you, it's hard not to be! And being each other's biggest fan is what family is all about!
Sawyer, at almost 4.5 years old, you are smart, sensitive, playful, thoughtful and so many other wonderful things. You are already the best big brother and it is a role you take seriously. You are always helping Graham....put his shoes on, use the potty, find his toys. You are happy to help and I know you will love to help take care of your little sister. You are the perfect leader for your brother and sister. God made you specifically to be the first of our babies. He knew you were exactly what we all needed. Thank you for your patience and forgiveness as Daddy and I are still figuring out this parenting thing and you are the one we are learning with. You are my very favorite first born son!
Graham, at almost 3 years old, you are silly, determined, love to make people laugh, our snuggler and know exactly what you want. You are such a perfect little brother for us and our family. You are so joyful and I know these qualities and more are those that are going to make you a great big brother. You are already talking about all the ways you are going to help take care of you little sister and you are really excited about a baby and being a big brother like Sawyer. It will be such a privilege to watch you take on your new role and one of the things I'm most looking forward too. God made you specifically to be our second baby. He knew exactly what our family of 3 needed and you were created just for us. That gives me great comfort on some of our more challenging days. We were made for each other! You are my very favorite second born son!
My specific prayer is that we all transition smoothly and fall into our roles within our family of five. That while a new baby may mean less time, it will mostly just mean more love, more laughs, more fun, another best friend and only great, great things!
You two will always have your very own special corner of my heart for your whole life! You are mine and I am yours!
I love you both more than you will ever, ever know!
How far along? 38 weeks!! I can hardly believe it...
Total weight gain: another lb. thinking I'll finish out closer to 40 lbs. total this time. Yikes. Ha
Stretch marks? still squeaking by with none...
Sleep: some nights are really good and some nights are awful, so I'm just taking what I can get Best moment this week:starting maternity leave. Yay!! Wednesday was my last day. Movement: yes, but she is running out of room Food cravings: coke zero and cereal...not together. Ha. Gender: GIRL Symptoms: been having some irregular contractions. And at my Dr. appt yesterday I was 2cm dilated and 70% effaced. So exciting to me!! Belly Button in or out? out What I miss: being comfortable, bending over, clothes that fit...I'm getting to that point. Ha. What I am looking forward to: finishing up the to do list this weekend -- prob should install the car seat, assemble some baby items, pack a bag. Ha. We've basically done nothing in that regard. Lots to do! Milestones: Induction is scheduled for next Wednesday, 7/23. I'll be 39 weeks. And this is only a week early but I feel like I have so much to do and am so unprepared! And only 4.5 days left to do it all. And I'm starting to get that sick, nervous feeling worrying about the boys. Which I know is so crazy, because I KNOW it will all be fine. Better than fine, it will be incredible because I'm not sure there is anything better than family and siblings. But still, it's a mama's job to worry about her babies. So I'll probably worry for the next several days and come Wednesday after our girl is here, everything will undoubtedly be just as it should.
We took a little getaway last weekend. We went to a state park about an hour from home and stayed in a cabin. We had the best time. It was hot and we packed tons of fun into the 2 days we were there so it was also exhausting but so worth it. Keith and I were joking as we were laying on the sofa bed that I must have lost my mind temporarily when I booked this a while back since I'm currently almost 38 weeks pregnant. Ha. It was a 1 bedroom cabin and the bedroom had twin beds so we put the boys in there. We decided on the sofa bed because it was in the room with the tv, which had cable, which we no longer have at home so that in and of itself felt like a vacation. ;) Honestly though, it was such a fun trip and I'm so glad for an intentional weekend of memory making with our little 4 foursome before we welcome our little lady!
Here are some pictures from our trip.
We enjoyed the pool, the playground, the lake, the nature center, smores, the sandbox and not pictured arts and crafts, archery lessons (which was Saw's favorite part), throwing rocks in the lake and a scavenger hunt.
I forgot the graham crackers and plates...so we improvised!
A weekend away was just what we needed after a long week. Now, we are officially on operation "tie up loose ends and get ready for baby". Yay!